Posted on | January 21, 2011 | 5 Comments

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Have you ever been in a situation that you knew was not good for you?  You try your hardest to make the best of the situation, but you just feel you are moving at warp speed toward a brick wall. Yes- this is how it is at the Death Star.

The harder you work, the worse things become.  You can’t get a handle on the situation.  The brakes don’t work.  The wall is getting closer and closer, and you continue to rely on your “training” and work as hard as you can to meet standards, or better yet, exceed them.

Eventually, you meet the wall head on.  Nothing has worked.  You relied on your very little lack of training, and it failed you.  The only thing left to do is to cover your head and brace for impact.  You know it’s going to hurt, and hurt for a very long time.  But, in your heart, you know that you did everything you could to avoid the wall.

After the crash, there’s the recovery.  You’re in shock.  You’re stunned to a point of paralysis, and it takes a while to get your bearings again.

This is the point at which you discover just how many people were in that wreck with you.  Who stood up for you?  Who is willing to pick you up after the fall?  At the Death Star, the answer is no one.

After I took a step back to reevaluate my life and career and ask myself simple questions.  “Am I on the right path?”  “Is this really what I’m supposed to be doing with my life?”  “Why did this happen?”  “Could I have worked harder to stop it?”

After surviving my crash into the wall,  I’ve asked myself all of these questions.  I don’t have all of the answers, but I do have one.

In my heart, I sincerely know that there was nothing I could have done differently to stop the crash.  I couldn’t have worked any harder, performed any better, done anything differently. I asked all the right questions during my interview.  The Death Star lied.  That is what they do.

At least the only lesson reinforced during this extremely exhaustive process is to treat people much better than I am treated.  It’s not a new lesson, but maybe somehow the universe felt it needed to be reinforced.   People deserve to be treated with respect.  Period.  If only the Death Star would understand that, life would be so much easier for everyone.

Happy Friday Everyone.  I am off to take my Stormtrooper uniform to the cleaners.  You can’t imagine how freaking dirty they get every week :)


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5 Responses to “Rubbernecking”

  1. Fort Worth 8L
    January 21st, 2011 @ 3:30 pm

    OMG! I read this post fully expecting that I would reach the bottom and it would say that you had been disciplined or fired or something. Thank goodness that is not the case! I have worked for a kafka-esque organization where the boss thought he was some kind of military genius (rather than a former grunt who would have been phaser fodder). It really messes with your head.

  2. Corporate Paralegal
    January 21st, 2011 @ 5:39 pm

    I am so sorry that they lied to you. Sometimes that is the worst part. You can deal with the crap if you knew about it from the beginning. Just don’t turn to the Dark Side.

    May the Force be with you.

  3. OldParalegal
    January 21st, 2011 @ 10:28 pm

    Of course they lied to you. Darth Vader thinks he is a good person with the best intentions for the fate of the universe. He is not aware he is evil incarnate, therefore can not disclose this to you. Management has been brainwashed and can’t tell you any different either. There is nothing you could have done to avoid it, other than to become a total cynic.

  4. KYLegalSec
    January 24th, 2011 @ 1:45 pm

    Almost enough to make you think that maybe the Bitch Attorney was a warning–maybe she’s actually a nice person, it’s just that working for the Death Star Force-choked her soul and compassion out of her.

  5. alley cat
    January 28th, 2011 @ 4:22 pm

    “This is the point at which you discover just how many people were in that wreck with you. Who stood up for you? Who is willing to pick you up after the fall? At the Death Star, the answer is no one.”

    I have been here before. The industry as a whole is broken and most firms are riddled with the diseases of ego, greed, and a gross disdain for all who are not also pursuing fortune (and fame) at nearly any cost.

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